I tried, you didn't. I'm done, have fun.
~R.
Labels: Him, That's what we called a LIFE, The One That Got Away
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because every biatch has her own story
I Will
by Chris Kirkpatrick & David Foster
When life seems hopeless
And you're all alone
And no-one's there to dry
The teardrops from your eyes
When you can't find a single reason left to try
Baby I will, Baby I will
Tell me the secrets
That you've locked away
Confide your deepest fears
That haunt you every day
All of the little things
Nobody else could understand
Baby I will, I will
It's alright
I'll be there
Count on me
Anytime, anywhere
I'll show you love
'Till the end of my life
When no-one else will stand by your side
I will
When all you've counted on
Comes tumbling down
And there's only emptyness
That nothing seems to fill
And when you can't remember
How to be strong
Baby I will, I will
It's alright
I'll be there
Count on me
Anytime, anywhere
I'll show you love
'Till the end of my life
When no-one else will stand by your side
I will
When no-one else will stand by your side
I'll be standing right by your side
I will
M U S T W A T C H !
Clip of the Day
Maudy Ayunda - Perahu Kertas (OST. Perahu Kertas 1, 2012)
B E H I N D T H E B L O G
The Biatch
Hell-o, my name is ________ , it depends on what you want me to be called. I am half Dementor and half Death-Eater. You fool me once, then enjoy your karma. You fool me twice, then you can be the player; but hell yeah i will always be the coach.
Life is a biatch, so.. why so serious?
T W E N T Y S I X
RANDOM FACTS
RANDOM FACTS
well, i am 26 years old, aren't i?
ONE i am dope. TWO i do judge a song from its intro. THREE step up 3 is the best dance film i've ever watched. the soundtrack is smokin awesome. FOUR i am a Leo that born on Tiger year. I slip the claws inside my pocket. FIVE i am listening to Arctic Monkeys - Baby I'm Yours when i type this. SIX Johnny Depp, Alex Turner, Adam G. Sevani, Mark Foster, Madd Chadd, Bondan Prakoso, Nick Hexum, Mike Shinoda, Wes Borland, are the best living creature God has ever made. SEVEN PVD is the initial of my previous boyfriend. EIGHT i'm working with my voice. NINE i have one older sister and one younger brother. TEN i'm single, but not available. ELEVEN i love the sound and smell when a mosquito is being buzzed by the electricity racket. Eat that! TWELVE ammm.. i don't really like bald guy. THIRTEEN i can sketch, sing, draw, paint, play music instrument. Art is my middle name. FOURTEEN i'm professional at fake smile. FIFTEEN i'm a weekdays and weekends warrior SIXTEEN t-shirt, jeans, and canvas flat shoes is my style SEVENTEEN you can type my fullname on search column on Facebook, and you won't find me. EIGHTEEN i'm not for sale NINETEEN my bedroom wall is baby-blue painted TWENTY> i can be royal for a real-friend TWENTYONE 1 point plus for smart & educated guy TWENTYTWO David Guetta is hot TWENTYTHREE i like to throw things everywhere. but i'm good at find them when i need. TWENTYFOUR 24 is my age 2 years ago TWENTYFIVE my best fiction character award goes to Ronan Weasley, Gambit, Sanosuke Sagara, and Murdoc Niccals TWENTYSIX i am dangerous
T O D O L I S T
things to do
i'm not good at doing things in order, please notify me later.
filling the organizer book
thinking about him.
waking up earlier than 4 am and prepare things so i don't get late for work
taking my ex boyfriend back
slaping those two-face coworkers
practicing some moves
washing dishes
GET AN ADEQUATE SLEEPING QUALITY TIME.
T A G B O A R D
what?
Fin.
10:34:00 - Wednesday, 26 September 2012
~R.
And I'm Like.. Forget You.
01:29:00 - Tuesday, 25 September 2012
Said, if I was bitchier, I'd still be with you.
Ha, now ain't that some shit. And although there's pain in my chest, I still wish you the best with a forget you
I guess she's an Xbox, and I'm more an Atari. But the way you play your game ain't fair.
I pity the fool that falls in love with you.
Well, I've got some news for you. Yeah, go run and tell your girlfriend.
Now I know that I had to be strong, be hurt, fooled, lied.. Trying to keep you, trying to please you.. 'Cause being in love with you ain't cheap.
Now, I pity the fool that falls in love with you.. Well, I've got some news for you.. Oh, I really hate you right now
Now, baby, baby, baby.. Why'd you wanna, wanna hurt me so bad?
And yes although there's pain in my chest I still wish you the best with a forget you.
~R.
Ha, now ain't that some shit. And although there's pain in my chest, I still wish you the best with a forget you
I guess she's an Xbox, and I'm more an Atari. But the way you play your game ain't fair.
I pity the fool that falls in love with you.
Well, I've got some news for you. Yeah, go run and tell your girlfriend.
Now I know that I had to be strong, be hurt, fooled, lied.. Trying to keep you, trying to please you.. 'Cause being in love with you ain't cheap.
Now, I pity the fool that falls in love with you.. Well, I've got some news for you.. Oh, I really hate you right now
Now, baby, baby, baby.. Why'd you wanna, wanna hurt me so bad?
And yes although there's pain in my chest I still wish you the best with a forget you.
~R.
Labels: Him, The One That Got Away
Never Break These Things.
20:44:00 - Saturday, 22 September 2012
And So I Wait.
23:40:00 - Friday, 21 September 2012
I wait for the time to heal the pain and raise me to my feet once again..
So that I can start a new path, my own path, the one that will make me whole again..
It's hard when someone special ignores you..
But it's even harder pretending not to care.
Well, not all the scars show. Not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't always see the pain someone feels..
I wondered, how long this could last. Maybe someday, years from now -if the pain would just decrease to the point where i could bear it-- i would be able to look back on those few short months that would always be the best of my life.
And then i felt sad. Because i realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can never be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you're young, and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older and you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it's already happened.
I do believe things happen for a reason. People change, so i can learn to let go. Things go wrong, so i can appreciate them when they're right. I believe lies so i eventually learn to trust no one but myself. And i do believe, sometimes, good things fall apart. So that better things can fall together.
Dear God, if only you want me to stop, then i will stop. For now, let me just doing what makes me happy : to see him happy. Not because he's with me, but because of me.
~R.
So that I can start a new path, my own path, the one that will make me whole again..
It's hard when someone special ignores you..
But it's even harder pretending not to care.
Well, not all the scars show. Not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't always see the pain someone feels..
I wondered, how long this could last. Maybe someday, years from now -if the pain would just decrease to the point where i could bear it-- i would be able to look back on those few short months that would always be the best of my life.
And then i felt sad. Because i realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can never be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you're young, and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older and you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it's already happened.
I do believe things happen for a reason. People change, so i can learn to let go. Things go wrong, so i can appreciate them when they're right. I believe lies so i eventually learn to trust no one but myself. And i do believe, sometimes, good things fall apart. So that better things can fall together.
Dear God, if only you want me to stop, then i will stop. For now, let me just doing what makes me happy : to see him happy. Not because he's with me, but because of me.
~R.
Labels: Him, That's what we called a LIFE, The One That Got Away
Daily Life : Imagination VS Reality.
19:59:00 - Monday, 17 September 2012
THIS.
18:44:00 - Sunday, 16 September 2012
Amen.
03:18:00
If You Ever Come Back :'
17:27:00 - Saturday, 15 September 2012
I'll leave the door on the latch..
If you ever come back, yeah.. if you ever come back, there'll be a light in the hall and the key under the mat..
If you ever come back, there'll be a smile on my face and the kettle on..
And it will be just like you were never gone,,
There'll be a light in the hall and the key under the mat..
If you ever come back..
Now they say I'm wasting my time 'cause you're never comin' home.. But they used to say the world was flat.. but how wrong was that now?
And by leavin' my door open I'm riskin' everything I own..
And I wish I could still wish it was not over.. but even if wishing is a waste of time..
Even if I never cross your mind..
If you ever come back, P.
:'
~R.
If you ever come back, yeah.. if you ever come back, there'll be a light in the hall and the key under the mat..
If you ever come back, there'll be a smile on my face and the kettle on..
And it will be just like you were never gone,,
There'll be a light in the hall and the key under the mat..
If you ever come back..
Now they say I'm wasting my time 'cause you're never comin' home.. But they used to say the world was flat.. but how wrong was that now?
And by leavin' my door open I'm riskin' everything I own..
And I wish I could still wish it was not over.. but even if wishing is a waste of time..
Even if I never cross your mind..
If you ever come back, P.
:'
~R.
Labels: Him, The One That Got Away
After The Break-Up ......
22:03:00 - Monday, 3 September 2012
Things i thought
were better left unsaid ...
1. I was dreaming
about him the day i broke up with him. First dream of him, he came here and
we’re having so much good times.. live together, going vacation together,
that’s the first time i had a dream of him and i was so happy.. when i opened my eyes
and realized it’s just a dream, i remember we’re having last cam and break up,
and it’s killing me.. and i refresh the facebook page of him.. and i found that
he is engaged with his ex.. my world is gone......
2. I wrote him a
song.. i just made the rhythm when he said to me he needs time to think again
about our relationship.. i was crumbling down.. the song is left unsung..
3. I sketched his
face and mine on a paper.. i was planning to send him the sketch right at the
moment when we have our next monthversary.. when i saw his relationship changed
into engaged with somebody else –only a moment after we broke up- i tear the
paper.. i was shattered..
4. I learn how to
make cupcakes so that when he has his birthday i will blow the candy here for
him.. i think it’s just a waste now.. because he will be with his fiancee on
that special day..
5. I started to save
my monthly payment from work for the visa to visit him.. i took 3 side jobs
besides my radio station work so that i can make more money to save to get all
the things i need to visit him.. i don’t think it’s worth it now.. he chose to
keep sticking with his past..
I decided not to
tell him about these things. Those are better left unsaid. Or should never?
It doesn't matter now. He's gone.....
~R
Labels: Him, That's what we called a LIFE, The One That Got Away
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